How do you do it? My head, heart, and body are not in sync. Which has been in evidence this past month. Why? I don’t rightly know. I have been trying for the past couple of months to figure it out. The closest I’ve come to any idea is: that I have, finally, allowed the life changing events that started last summer steer me off course.
I will go to the #saturday7amsocialclub tomorrow morning and I will have to weigh in to establish my free lifetime status for May. I will do that, but I will be up a few pounds from April’s weigh in. Why? I’m not completely sure. I haven’t tracked well this month, but I know I haven’t gone off the deep end with junk either. I don’t know why I haven’t tracked well. Is it just one more thing to do? Could I be starting to gain muscle mass from the heavy lifting? Jeff, said that I would eventually. Maybe, but I don’t think that is it. At least not completely.
I just have to BELIEVE that it will all balance out.
I also feel like I’ve lost my source(s) of support. I started this journey over three years ago. At that time I was not in it alone. I had a WW buddy, a workout buddy, and running buddies. That changed last summer. I was determined not to let those changes affect me. But I am fearing they are. Slowly I have let them. I have thrown myself a “Pity Party”.
Now it is up to me to say “enough is enough” and figure out how to snap out of it. This has always been a marathon, not a sprint. So at this point I have decided to think of it in race terms. I have “hit the wall” around mile 20. Now I have to dig deep and power through to get to the finish line. The only difference is; there is no finish line.
I have done this before, on my own. So why should this be any different?
Technically I still have a meeting room full of WW buddies and I treasure them; I know that I can message any of them at anytime, but it’s not the same. I guess you could call my trainer, Jeff, a workout buddy; but I pay him (to torture me) so I’m not sure that counts, lol! Truth be told if it weren’t for my meetings and workouts with Jeff, I would have likely given up long ago.
Last night I went to my Thursday night yoga class. It has been quite a while since I was last at that class. Ironically, Dave, the instructor said something about how it was much easier and better to practice in a group vs alone at home. This is so true. I try to practice yoga at home, but don’t get very far. The energy is so different in the studio. That’s how I have been feeling in general, I guess, over this portion of my journey. It was much easier, better, and enjoyable with the buddy system.
I must pull my head out of my rumpus if I plan to run a marathon, that’s for sure. And I am determined to do that.
I have started by getting a new training journal and looking at a training plan. I told you I have increased my sessions with Jeff (they say what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger). We will see about that!
I have been trying to be a long distance buddy for a friend who’s on her own journey. I’m not sure I have been a very good buddy for her. I hope I can do better.
What do you do to pull yourself out of slump? Do you like “going it alone” or having a partner? Have you been in this same boat? If so, how have you handled it? Let me know your thoughts. If you have any suggestions; throw them at me!
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